"i dont filt, i experiment with different forms of expression"
whats "filt"? just by what its saying around this quote im guessing
that its jumping around from one thing to another aimlesly...

reading journal

Englishman hated johnny. he despised hi in the worst way, so much that in that moment, he realized not having johnny to hate might be his end "if johnny dies, i might die"

does there have to be evil in order for there to be good? does one thing need to have an opposite to balance it out?