sinner2

so far ive met billy and darcy who where in showdown but not theire grown up and billy is a lawyer and darcy ... its not too clear where she works but its just going through things that have nothing to do with much so far.

"i dont filt, i experiment with different forms of expression"
whats "filt"? just by what its saying around this quote im guessing
that its jumping around from one thing to another aimlesly...

reading journal

Englishman hated johnny. he despised hi in the worst way, so much that in that moment, he realized not having johnny to hate might be his end "if johnny dies, i might die"

does there have to be evil in order for there to be good? does one thing need to have an opposite to balance it out?

"he had thought betrayal would get easier with time. it didn't" i pesonaly dont think that it would get easear, its not really right... well it does depend on the surcumstances but anyways, it just leads to guilt dosnt it?

"im not sure which is harder, being caught in the wake of this project showdown, or believing it exists"
this sentence really makes me think of how much the past or present affects the future and how much one decision can change everything. sometimes i think of what could of happened if i had chose differently...

"I'm going to end this now" says the antagonist "Englishman"of the book as hes chasing the protagonist. it seems like the writer could just end the book now, but .. i have a ways to go. what else could happen? i mean really its already a hardcore scene, and there's all this intense stuff going on... so what next?

"johnny must now become Carl in order to save Kelly, it was the only way"
how do you become someone you arent ... and apparently its temporary.